Sunday, June 13, 2021

Long time lover

long time lover over 50 years,

only one of those.

none of the others would have anything to do with me.

asking myself, any i've overlooked?

by definition there could be. i've overlooked them,

a candidate. no guys. they're done very quickly and let me know

in no uncertain terms to stay away from them

 

that leaves a small circle of virtual friends, recent friends,

unreal friends.

invest a lot proportionally in them.

Sunday, November 15, 2020

Moment


 

Is there an artful moment in the blank between the fullness of dream adventure and the emptiness of the moment awakened?

I hear the roar of the sea still from last night. Resonance from the mouth of the earth, a cavity, even a cave, grotto. To the ear the message is fascinating, full, live. To the microphone and recording, terrible.

To the eye, subtleties of light are fascinating too, and some is retained in a photo. Instantly recognizable, even in a small scene.

Sunday, November 8, 2020

Rock

2020-11-01, 11pm, 4

Went to the rocks for a shoot. It was much like that special January day in 2019. The sun was within an hour of setting. Instead of the couple being Patti and me as in 2019, the couple this time was young, romantic, taking in the dying rays. They incidentally got into some of my pictures, but do not appear in the model, now 6% generated mesh with nine hours to go. Maybe tomorrow morning when I wake up, there will be a mesh. The power of 150 pictures. This scene is bigger than the one from 2019.

The new scene is 60 feet long by 40 feet wide. I think back to the time I modeled a good chunk of these same rocks, 256 by 256 meters from satellite photos, as I consider how satisfying this one rock and its neighbors will be.



Tuesday, September 15, 2020

Mature

Thinking about maturity recalling when it was once something I absolutely didn't have and now it's maybe the first thing they see as I proceed to act like it's not there

The object of maturity back in the day not ripe

no telling today, still cradled in light fur as it finally became back then

grow up

act your age

make all the right decisions

what are you waiting for

waiting for...

waiting for...

I remember a guy who was mature

a hard Taskmaster from Chicago but given to building extravagant sandcastles at Pismo

and making chummy Christmas cards in a workplace of alienation

Sunday, August 23, 2020

Fiery out

amber sunray
window shape on the floor
fire, marigold
calfornia poppy casablanca sandstorm
flame

where is the sun?
oh there, high in the chill gray sky

in the country
fires near us in the few
old growth redwoods we have,
this news smells like it's not going well

smokey, already sheltering in place
'cause of the pandemic

don't come here
the papers say

 update...

Wednesday, September 9 was a peculiar dark foggy day. It was still dark at 7:30, brightened somewhat for an hour or so, then grew quite dark by noon. Naked ladies were fluorescent in the dim orangish pinkish light. It was difficult to see in the pasture, though later in the afternoon it brightened somewhat. All the lights were on in the house all day, and people drove with headlights on.

Sunday, March 22, 2020

Self-consciousness to excruciating extreme

This is Marina's all right, Marina Abramovic

Look
beautiful
is it
beautiful
yes
beautiful
beautiful
beautiful
beautiful
it must be

Sunday, January 12, 2020

Musings (found)

Significant moments
elis moments
certain clark moments
15-minute mountain moments
terrie's body and ability to tickle
red rocks of the tucson mountains
lightning | glinting moments
dixon moments | transamerica
gerald ford moment
many many many wook moments
naked in the desert
ocean moment, first swim in
shallow cove | abalone shell moments
sky as planetarium moments
cloud moments | music moments
so many moments